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[07 Sep 2006|02:55pm] |
So school has started once again.
I only have four classes left until I graduate in January.
I am so excited about it.
Hopefully I will be accepted into either the Paul Mitchell or Aveda Cosmetology school.
I don't see any reason why I shouldn't though.
Things are alright.
I can't really complain too much.
Inside the back of my head though there's a boy who's constantly on my mind.
It's really quite sad, and we will never ever be together.
I like him a ton though.
Partying was cool and all over the summer, but I'm just not that into it.
I just want to hang out with a few people and smoke a cigarette.
Meh, boys.
Err, A boy.
I don't really trust anyone anymore because they always show me a reason to question them.
But that all changes in time.
All Time Low concert tonight.
That should be alright.
Peace up, A-Town down.
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[06 Jul 2006|10:44pm] |
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This summer I have:
-Worked 6 days a week
-Been used
-Felt Worthless
-Smoked a pack of cigarettes in one night
-Woken up completly alone
-Blacked up because of my heart problems
-Wanted to get away
-Decided to move to VA in 3 weeks hopefully
-Cried in front of my boss
-Liked a stupid boy
-Realized all the people who mean something to me
-Gotten into acoustic alternative music
-Wanted to be someone different
-Tried something new
-Gained weight
-Made some new really good friends
-Drank away my insecurites
-Accepted myself and realized happiness comes from yourself
-Taken responsibility for all of my decisions
-Wished people the best of luck in their lives
-Grown as a person
-Taken a few steps back
-Let my hair grow over an inch
-Started taking biotin
-Found a new addiction in Cookie Dough Slim-Fast bars
-Laughed more than ever
-Learned to expect the unexpected
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So me and Arjun have broken up forever and ever.
It's sad, but I'm moving on and it just couldn't work out.
Outback is the most fantabulous place to work ever.
Anthony, Coty, and Chris are like my second family.
I love them to death.
Lindsey and Laura are my first family, so don't get crazy ideas that they've been replaced.
School is over, yaaaay.
This summer is gonna be the best summer ever.
So yea, there's an overview.
andhearts; Samantha
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[02 Jan 2006|01:44am] |
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I decided I'd list everyone who rocks my world
-Arjun
-Lindsey
-Laura
-Julia
-Alison
-David
-Brandon
-Connor
-Jenn
-Nick
-Sarah
-Libby
-Jenny
-Erica
-Tyler
-DC
-Jake(my best friend)
-this random girl that always smiles at me
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[03 Nov 2005|10:35am] |
keepinitcracka (7:15:08 PM): alright, i confess
keepinitcracka (7:15:17 PM): i gave you the date rape drug last night and had my way with you
keepinitcracka (7:15:19 PM): i couldn't resist, i'm sorry :-\
I effing <3 my Laura
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[30 Oct 2005|06:07pm] |
So I got my Pea-coat today :-)
And eww, my hair is getting straggly.
Haircut in 2 weeks :-)
Halloween tommorow, I think I'm going to David's for the first time in 6,000 years.
It should be fun.
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[27 Oct 2005|09:59pm] |
Me and Arjun are almost one year now....yea!
I have a job a Target.
And an Internship at Moden Salon and Spa.
I have new and better friends. =)
I've been to Scarowinds TWICE.
And did the skyflier each time...
It's halloween soon.
And my Senior Exit project kicks everyone elses ass.
My model is a head with hair that I cut, dyed and styled.
How's that for original?
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[10 Jun 2005|02:03pm] |
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I cut my hair, and I feel like an ugly boy.
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[03 May 2005|09:37pm] |
I have migraines a lot.
I mean a lot.
They make my days difficult.
People tell me I'm faking those headacches for sympathy,
Fuck them.
Ryan is so much more annoying than before.
We'll be sitting around and all of a sudden he brings out his almighty band collection of knowledge and brags about all the bands he knows.
ON TOP OF THAT, he makes a big deal about it like he's doing everyone a favor.
Earth to Ryan, everyone knew those bands before you.
Here's a bit more to add to his cockiness, he has this garage band that he claims is sooooooooo good and says things like, "Yea we didn't even have to ask for another show, I guess when your as good as us they just put you on the list."
Bastard.
Steven owes me over $30 bucks.
Hasn't even offered to pay me back.
He now has $120 dollars.
What kind of selfish jerk does that?
Arjun bitched at him, hopefully Steven will pay me back now.
Now one has the balls to talk to me anymore.
They all know that what I said about them was true.
Not like I'm complaining, my days have less drama.
Arjun is leaving in 36 days for 35 days to India.
I'm getting really sad about it.
What a boring summer I will have.
It is our 6 months in 7 days though.
So yay.
Hah. I proved all you whores wrong.
My dad called my clothes "ratty, and poor people clothes."
He also claims "my mom can't raise me and she's fucked up and everythings her fault."
I refuse to talk to my excuse for a father anymore until he gets his act together.
Why can't I have nice, moral people in my life?
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[17 Apr 2005|01:54pm] |
Who Am I
-I'm not as cool as I'd like to seem
-Wearing a bathing suit makes me feel uncomfortable and self-conscious
-I love cuddling
-I am usually cold
-I have big dreams, with little chance of reaching them
-I always think for the worst
-I get random bad feelings, and 98% of the time they are right
-I get scared really easily
-I am fascinated by psychology
-I love to sit and analyze people from a distance
-I am obsessed with taking pictures, and looking at them, they are so gorgeous
-I like to be silly
-I am very opinionated, but everyone is really, people don't like to admit it
-I play playstation 2, and I like it
-I have very few people that I can consider my friends
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[14 Apr 2005|10:03pm] |
I didn't go to school today.
My mother has this job with some kind of Nazi as her boss, and if we wake up late she can't take us to school because then she'll be late for work and she'll be fired.
We don't wanna be poor, so we sacrifice that day's education.
Not like it's to much of a sacrifice.
I learn nothing in school that't worthwhile.
In my career as a psycologist I will never need to know how to calculate an atoms mass.
It would be easy to wake up every day late and not go to school but I already have over 10 hours of recovery to do and it just doesn't seem worth it.
I hate school really, and not in the normal teenage way.
School is my own private hell.
If there is a heaven in hell(I'm not sure yet), I know Satan will make my firey inferno exactly like my highschool is now.
I would seriously drop out if it wasn't for my boyfriend and the whole money thing.
Money doesn't matter in the mental sense.
But money does matter when you don't wanna live in a three-story-box.
My brother always told me that's where I'd end up.
Back to the boyfriend.
His name is Arjun Duggaraju, he's absolutly gorgeous, and he's in love with me.
He's beautiful, I am amazed every time I see him or talk to him.
He makes me happy.
He's beautiful in two ways:
1.) Physically: deep brown eyes, tan skin, black hair, not to tall, and just the right build
2.) Mentally: He has morals, expects the best of me, makes me smile, and he's trustworthy
My friends are horrible.
That is important to know, because I used to be so happy to be friends with them.
It's weird how fast people can come in and out of your life.
Basically they are all lying, fake backstabbers.
My goal in life is to feel infinite, for one more moment in life.
I have felt infinite before.
But that'll have to wait
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